The Beginning.

so heres whats up:
i am sophia ruins. no, thats not my real name. yes, i am pro-ana. if you're not, then get off my blog. if you're recovering, i do support you, but you should probably not be reading this. im 15, soon to be 16, i weigh 119 lbs and im 5' 6". im a pretty nice person, i live in a very small town and im pretty much obsessed with doing ballet. ive been doing it for a while and i love it. i sing, i dance, i act, and i geuss im pretty normal. yes, i have an eating disorder. but i love it. it helps me through things and it makes me happy. judge me all you want. but in the end, youre the weak one who cant control your fat-ass from devouring everything you see. if youre non-judgmental, then the world needs more people like you lol. props.

so i geuss from now on ill be posting on here, putting tips, tricks, goals, and maybe some thinspiration here and there.

JUST LET ME SAY RIGHT NOW, I AM IN NO WAY RESPONSIBLE FOR ANYONE STARVING THEMSELVES TO DEATH. I AM NOT ENCOURAGINHG YOU TO BECOME ANOREXIC. I AM NOT ENCOURAGING YOU TO EAT LESS. ANOREXIA IS A TERRIBLE DISEASE THAT MANY PEOPLE DIE FROM EVERY YEAR, AND IT TRULY DOES CONSUME YOUR LIFE. YOU DONT WANT TO LIVE LIKE THIS. GO EAT A BURGER AND GET OFF MY PAGE. ENJOY THE FACT THAT YOUR CONSCIENCE ALLOWS YOU TO. I WILL NOT HAVE ANGRY MOTHERS CONTACTING ME BITCHING ME OUT BECAUSE THEIR DAUGHTER [or son] WAS STUPID ENOUGH TO CAUSE SERIOUS DAMAGE TO THIER BODIES FOR THE SAKE OF BEING THIN. do as i say, not as i do. and i say stop trying to be anorexic. [those of you who have to try.]

okay so now that thats been said, ill tell you about today.

today is the first day of my second fast this past two weeks. i fasted for about 3 days then ate [tried to eat at least] for 2 days and now im starting a new fast because i really want to loose weight before this coming monday. so yeah. good lord, let me just say, fitday.com has saved my life. i was never good at keeping track of anything or at keeping track of how much ballet/exercise ive done but it just makes everything so much easier. my poor fat journal is being neglected =[

im pretty hungry right now as all ive had today is water nad coffee [i dont think i could handle just water.] maybe ill go drink some tea or do some situps or something lol.

alright well, the bf calls so ill blog more tomorrow on my triumphs and failures.

XOXO Sophia Ruins <3