this is horrible.
so ive pretty much failed at life today =/

today, my mom made me eat 5 TAQUITOS IN FRONT OF HER. which ended my fast quicker than a free doughnut. so i figured that id just fast 4 more days to make up for if. but no, it wont make up for it now. because i binged. after eating, i only got hungrier. not stomach hungrier, but in my head hungrier. my stomach was filled to the brim but my head wanted more. so watd i do? i binged.the voice in my head said no, and i said fuck you.
i ate.
everything.
i went on a blind rampage.
i ate cookie dough, [yes, cookie dough]
pizza,
salad,
an oreo,
a piece of a jolly rancher,
some ice cream,
an apple
some grapes
an orange
a sandwich
a bagel
some crackers.

it was horrible.

my stomach felt liek it was going to bust open and i felt like i was going to throw up.

but i didnt.
i just hated myself and did 1000 crunches.

im not even sore.

its horrible.

so this morning i prayed and prayed the damage to the scale would be undone.

but i was very wrong.

i weigh exactly 120 again.

no 118 for me.

im going to see all my friends and theyre all going to see my failure written on my waist.


just lovely.


wont be on for a few days.

starve well babez

XOXO Sophia Ruins <3