Okay so now I'm sicker than I was before. Now I just keep getting fevers, I have a horrible cough, my chest feels heavy and shitty, and I keep getting these awful headaches. Not to mention my throat is so swollen and sore I've lost my voice.
All I want to do is get thin and fast and I can't get over this fucking sickness. The antibiotics aren't doing shit for me. My mom keeps spoon feeding me such high calorie shit that even if I only ate 1/4th a cup of it I would be over my daily intake by a lot. When I tell her I'm not hungry she bitches and goes on and on about how I'm never going to get better by starving myself. I'm definitely not going to get any better by getting fatter.
I can already fucking see the spaces that were once empty becoming full with fat. My hips and thighs feel like they've expanded massively. I cant stand my arms. I hate my body.
I wish I wasn't sick. I don't want to eat anymore.
XOXO Sophia Ruins <3
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Remind your mom of a very famous saying:
ReplyDelete"Feed a cold, starve a fever"
Feel better babe :)
XOXO,
Scarlet <3
i'm sick too right now and it sucks...i feel super unproductive cuz i feel like shit and i cant do anything active. i just started antibiotics today and im hoping they help. in ur case, it's a bad sign that the antibiotics aren't helping you...like bacteria can build up a strong defense sometimes, rendering some less potent antibiotics useless. i was reading all of this earlier today to see when i was figuring out if i really did need to go see the doc haha...cuz i REALLY didnt feel like going and sitting in the dr's office all day.
ReplyDeleteanyways, what is ur mom feeding you? if it is super calorie dense food, then it might be dairy based, which is NOT WHAT YOU SHOULD BE CONSUMING WHEN YOU'RE SICK. You should tell her that. dairy makes mucus thicker and will make u more congested. you should also tell her that when ur sick ur supposed to eat foods that are easy to digest and not thick and calorie dense so that ur body can focus on repairing itself instead of focusing on breaking down food in your stomach. this could all be bullshit, but it sounds good and ur mom might buy it. besides, when ur sick u should be focusing on drinking a ton of clear liquids to push shit through and cleanse the body...i hope this helps!
XOXO :(
ReplyDeleteMy mom is the same, anytime I get sick it becomes an opportunity for her to shove all kinds of food down my throat, all so I can get better. Hope you get better soon! Don't worry, once you get better you'll be back in full force
ReplyDeleteAw, I hope you feel better soon!!
ReplyDeleteI hope you feel better quickly, love.
ReplyDeleteSending good vibes your way.
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