Update

Alright so this is going to be short.


T moved in. We spend our nights whispering in the dark about life until the sun starts to turn my curtains grey. I've never felt this comfortable with anyone before, and aside from a few minor bumps I'm glad we decided to move in together. Besides my parents fighting all the time, and how annoying my family can be everything's been going fairly smoothly. The only thing I worry about it what I'm going to do when our relationship ends. I know it's cynical to be thinking about that now, but I can't help but feel like I won't be the same person by the end of everything.

Food wise, T and I have been disagreeing but thankfully he hasn't pushed any food on me. He just questions my motives, how long I've been doing it and if I plan on living like this for the rest of my life. I fasted from last Saturday until last night where I binged on a chicken strip, a hersheys kiss, 4 skittles, a spoonful of refried beans, and a strawberry.

I plan to go back to fasting today. With him around, It's much easier not to eat and I think about food a little less. I weighed myself Wednesday morning and I was 119 lbs.

I plan on fasting until next Wednesday which will give me a good 6 days of no food.

I saw Mark. He seemed to have aged a thousand years and didn't look as young as he is. He complimented me too much and we took a taxi to go get starbucks before parting ways. It wasn't nearly as scary as I had thought it would be.
I've been avoiding his calls lately though, since I've been a little caught up in the G / T feud.

G is absolutely livid. He's gotten to the point of going out of his way to run into me and making up ridiculous stories to try and make me feel jealous. He recently tried to sell me a story about a psychic priest he saw who said "there is a girl with long dark hair whos name starts with an S. She is deeply in love with you but confused and is making the wrong decision in being with someone else. Since she isn't doing what she is supposed to do, God is now going to send someone in your life who you will get married to who will be really pretty, unless this girl changes her mind."


I literally re-typed that from my text message inbox. I asked him if the psychic priest said anything about the loch-ness monster being in danger of being raped by bigfoot in the near future in the most serious tone I could muster.




I promise to start writing longer more in depth blogs once things get a little more settled.

Love you all and hope you're all doing well.





XOXO Sophia Ruins <3