119 people burger king thinspo

okay so let me start off today with why i binged yesterday.
i wont go into too much detail, but ill give you an outline so it at least explains some of the stuff thats happened today.

met this guy at the hippie house, well call him B. well B's a musician and i find him quite attractive. he asked for my number so we could all hang out and i gave it to him.
so we were texting and stuff and he starts doing that im-going-to-take-five-years-to-reply-to-all-your-texts thing and it starts getting really ridiculous like hes literally taking 3 hours to reply so i stop texting him.

so at like 10 the next day he was like 'hey, you wanna hang out in a few? im right down the road' so i was like sure and i got dressed and got all stressed out and shit thinking id look terrible by the time he got to my house since he lives like 2 seconds away.

then he doesnt show up.
doesnt text me for 2 hours.

and is like
'hey watsup can we still hang out? i can run over like now if you want'
=|

yeah.
so im like 'i thought you said you were like down the road'
and he doesnt text me back for half an hour.
and replies with
'oh i got busy so what are doing alter tonight.'
so hes really starting to piss me off and im like 'idk yet.'
then hes like
'oh you wanna go get a few drinks an hang out at my place?' so im like 'sure as long as hanging out is the only thing that happens haha' and i was completely kidding and hes like 'and drinking?'

and im like 'i was jkin' and he doesnt text me back.

so its like fucking 8 by the time he texts me again and hes like 'i can walk you home too if you want since its close and dark as all hell haha'
and i text him back a while later saying 'just txt me when you get here'.
and he says 'b there in 20'.

i was trying to sound bitchy, but wtf.
idk who the hell he thinks he is, but my world will not stop for this kid.


so another guy friend of mine calls and asks if i can go with him to go hang out in another city to drink with him and a few friends and said it would be major fun.

i told him i wasnt sure if i had plans cuz things were kinda half and half atm so he said to call him and let him know.

10 rolls around k randomly txts me and is like 'oh sorry i cnt hang out tonight'.

what.
the.
fuck.
so i call my friend back and im like 'hey i can go cuz this other kid cancelled.'
and hes like 'i already left srryz'.

so it really super pissed me off.


thats what happened yesterday and my being pissed off at being ignored all teh fucking time was what fueled my binge.

today hes doing the same thing so im just ignoring him.
it sucks because hes the only one in the house with a cell and so hes basically my only link with everyone else.
complicated much?

yeah so hes really getting on my nerves.

IN OTHER NEWS-

ive been 119 all day!

even with me drinking like 6 liters of water today.

i decided to have 15 cals instead of 20 and havent yet finished the rest of my apple serving.

but my mom brought burger king.
a whopper.
a milkshake.
fries.
onion rings.
honey mustard sauce.

drool.


i love burger king and i rarely get it so its really killing me.

but i REFUSE to let go of my grip on 119.

i WILL. NOT. get fat.

i refuse to gain weight.

in fact,
im going to go work out just for having thought about it.

NO FOOD.
just no.

i refuse to slip up.