i ate that mother fucking pizza and now my life is ruined.
im having a seriously bad day, in in a shitty mood, im fasting today but i dont even know why i bother anymore, and i am THIS CLOSE TO RUNNING A SEMI INTO A SCHOOL FOR BUNNIES.
ugh.
i wont hurt the bunnies, its not like its their fault i eat so much.
i checked my weight this morning, and im right back up to 127.
4 LBS FOR A PIECE OF PIZZA?!
why do i feel like my weight is going up exactly like gas prices did?
before i know it im going to see an extra 20 lbs on the scale for every glass of water.
i worked out, but ive never felt like working out compensates for eating. like no matter how hard i work my ass off, it wouldnt make a difference because the food is expanding my thighs so quickly its impossible for me to keep up.
my mom and i were in a restaurant and she randomly goes 'god i wish i had your body'.
she wasnt really paying attention, more or less just talking out of her ass and i go 'we probably weigh the same amount.' and she goes 'no way. what do you weigh, 115? 110? i weigh a lot more than that.' and i didnt say anything, just went back to my water [i dont trust diet coke anymore].
i figured she was just trying to make me feel like im thin so i dont need to keep skipping meals. so, i was visiting my stepfag, [my mom is making it mandatory.] and i go 'how much do you weigh.' he says 'i dont know. how much do you weigh?' and i say 'i dont know. how much do i look like i weigh.' and he says '116?'
im considering this as proof that my parents are conspiring against me. they must have talked to each other about what to say if i asked before hand.
am i really that predictable?
im starting to think that they want me to be fat, because if im fat ill have no friends and my social life will fail. maybe they want me fat just to prove that "not eating doesnt work".
i need to start making my eating a lot less conspicuous. im probably going to go back to making food and feeding it to the dog.
XOXO Sophia Ruins <3
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Sophia,
ReplyDeleteIt's great that you're back to fasting, but think logically about the pizza. The average slice has 200cals. It's not going to really make you gain weight as it takes 3500cals to make a pound. The diet coke mixed with the salt content of the pizza is responsible for the water weight. My advice is that you buy one of those tailoring tape measurers. Take your measurements when your weight goes back down. Whenever you see a big gain from some pizza or something, take your measurements because chances are you haven't grown an inch.
Good luck!
Scarlet <3
dont let this little set-back get you down. I know u can do it. & if your mum snf stepdad do have a little consipracy going on, let them. dont let them know you, know. be one step ahead of the game!
ReplyDeletestay strong
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okay good plan but you gotta walk the dog so it doesnt get fat and you burn cals :)
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i hate it when people say 'not eating doesn't work' or like 'you're going to gain it all back' its like HELLO anorexic people ARENT FAT SO OBVIOUSLY UR WRONG
ReplyDeleteI agree with Scarlet, 4 pounds for a pizza is highly unrealistic. Chances are it's just a fluke and you'll drop the pounds in a day or two. Don't worry :)
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you're feeling bad, but this post made me laugh out loud. Bunnies... good to see you still have a sense of humor, at least!
ReplyDeleteIt's the fatty foods you've got to stay away from. When you'r eeating low-cal, it goes striaght to your ass. Eat a ton of vegetables and stuff in front of your parents - super low-cal, but you'll be eating a lot.
At least you look like you weigh less than you do??
My mother ALWAYS tried to sabotage my weight loss, so you're smart to be wary of your parents... and hey, I bet you're dog will be happier with your new plan ;)
ReplyDeleteAs for the pizza, we all make mistakes. Just use it as motivation now when you're back to fasting. Also keep your plan in mind. Pizza has always reminded me of rotting flesh, like skin hanging off bloody bones... much less appetizing than cheese.
Stay strong lovelie!
P.S. Why don't you trust diet coke?? You've got me all freaked out now about empty calories...
It could be worse-your scale could be the one lying to you.
ReplyDeleteMine is. I think it's broken.
I posted a little about the sweetener in diet coke a little while ago.
BOUNCE BAAAAAACK! Your parents might've been basing their answer off the you they know, not saw at that moment. Either way keep what you really want in mind and don't let what others say or a bump in the road hinder you.
We all have those days.
...AND DYING2BTHIN14 IS TERRIBLY MISTAKEN.
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