Day 8 => 121 lbs. [nutmeg information for the curious]

nothing eaten yet.
how is it that i can eat shit for most of the week and gain almost no weight but i can fast for days and loose barely anything?

okay so about this nutmeg business.
i figured since i get some comments about people wanting to try it and what not, i should probably supply you with information about it.

first off,
you CAN overdose and die.
i read somewhere that even though it may feel harmless like pot to some people, its actually stronger than ecstasy.

the reason its still legal is because a lot of people have bad trips, and its not a common drug.
everyones experience is different as far as i know.
i know a lot of people who have tried it and hated it and a few people who liked it.

the majority hates it because of the simple fact that they overdose their first time, and end up sick as shit, vomiting everywhere, feeling like theyve got the flu.

my recommendation is to buy the whole nuts from the supermarket, ground it up with a cheese grater, and take one tablespoon.
the taste sucks, but its not all that bad.
if you eat it with low fat yogurt or skim milk with tons of splenda its not that bad.

you can take the pre-ground powder but it probably wont work too well and youll probably just end up with a headache.

different brands sell different nuts with different potency, so one table spoon of one brand wont give you the same high as a tablespoon of another brand.

avoiding a bad trip is easy.

think happy thoughts and listen to music.

seriously.

ive heard of a lot of people say they got really anxious and scared and thought they were dying.

i felt like that at one point, but then i just thought happy thoughts and imagined some pretty stuff.
its extremely easy to stay entertained with your own thoughts on this stuff.

the high will last for DAYS.
if you take it on an empty stomach, itll last longer and youll get higher.
seriously, clear a good 32 hours off the calendar because once your up, itll be a while till you come down.
it takes 5-7 hours for the high to take effect so its good to use if you dont want to have to bother hiding the stuff in your purse and taking it before you go to a party [or festival] and it makes it easier to get last minute stuff done before you actually get high.

and, its hard to hide the high.

another reason why i recommend only one tablespoon the first time.
you should also probably tell someone that lives with or near you so that if you start freaking out, they can tell the doctors what you took.
ive seen a few people sit crying on the floor unable to tell their friends what they took having people think they took something like acid when really it was just nutmeg.

it really does sound like a harmless thing [just a spice, right?] but take it seriously.
its NOT as harmless as it seems.

dont take any asprin, tylenol, acetaminophin, coffee, chocolate, anything with cocao or coco, diet pills, or mix it with any hard drugs [ecstasy, heroin, cocaine, etc.]
i personally dont smoke pot, but ive seen it mixed with a joint or too, and it didnt have any negative effect.

also,

nutmeg is a diuretic [scooorrreee] so its really easy to get dehydrated with it.
keep a water bottle with you, and be prepared to have to pee every half hour.

it makes your eyes red.
i recommend getting eye drops.

it MURDERS your apetite.
seriously.
food will probably be the last thing on your mind for a few days.

the average dosage is 1 gram per 10 lbs of body weight. [dont quote me though]


its really easy to be absent minded on it so i suggest keeping a backpack or something you cant put down and forget somewhere.
keep lots of water, eye drops, music, and gum with you.

it gives you terrible cottonmouth. thats what the gum is for.

coloring books, glitter pens, stickers, stuffed animals, etc. are fun to have around [youd be surprised at how much fun that stuff gets after a few hours of taking nutmeg]

and i dont suggest bringing any money with you if you go anywhere. [see last post]

heres what to expect, time-wise:

1-2 hours: cottonmouth, having to pee a lot, nothing too important
2-4 hours: cottonmouth, having to pee a lot, being talkative, giggly, colors seem brighter, noises seem sharper etc.
5-15 hours: peaking of high, hallucinations, being more introspective, deeper thoughts, the sense that everything is really funny, but not in a laugh out loud kind of way, slurred speech, not being able to sleep, short-term memory loss, impaired motor skills, feeling foggy, muscle spasms, euphoria etc.
15-36 hours: come-down type stage, feeling sedated, sleepy, thirsty, lethargic, dreamy, airy, achy muscles, general sense of well-being, relaxed, etc.

the next few days are usually relaxing, and i usually forget things easily during this time as well.




remember, ive only done it a few times but one thing ive seen a lot of people do is take two tablespoons, see that it hasnt had an effect in an hour, then take two more, get pissed off its not working, go to bed and wake up screaming bloody murder, throwing up all over the place crying to go to the hospital, incoherent and thinking theyre dying.

DO NOT OVERDOSE.

take ONE tablespoon then in 5 or 6 hours if you dont feel anything, let it go
then try two in a few days.

trust me,
its much better to be pissed off you didnt get high, than overdose on that shit.


i highly suggest reading through these sites first if youre thinking about doing it.
i personally love it.
but experiences all vary drastically.

http://www.erowid.org/experiences/exp.cgi?S1=41&S2=-1&C1=-1&Str=

http://www.truthtree.com/Nutmeg.shtml

http://www.bbdforum.com/viewthread.php?tid=1954

http://www.webmd.com/news/20010222/spicing-things-up-nutmeg-abuse-lands-girl-in-hospital




i plan on posting again later, with some thinspo and food updates.

=D


update:

okay so my total cals for today is 5.
but why do i feel so fat?
i feel guilty like ive eaten too much when its only been 5 calories.
and im craving sweets.

oh well.
im off to bed.

oh yeah, i forgot to mention:
i cant believe i have 94 people that actually READ what i write, chew it over in their heads, take it into consideration, and know about the existence of my eating disordered life.
welcome new people, those just cruising, and those in need of support from a complete stranger.
im here!
im breathing!
my life can get pretty boring but im a living human being too.
not just a window of text thats temporarily open on your computer, and not just a random name supplying information.
i have thoughts opinions, and like most people, an undying need for self expression.


let me dream.
i can pretend to matter if i feel like it =]



XOXO Sophia Ruins <3