alright so i want to take a second to say thank you to each and every single one of you.
no matter what i do, eating or not, i still admire all of you for your strength and what you guys go through.
im still changing my mind about what im doing every two seconds. one second i declare im fasting, and the next i decide im eating.
its hard eating at regular times, but im trying to get used to it. im afraid to get help from a dietitian, or anyone who gets paid to help people like me, because i dont want my family to know its a big deal.
i want to do this on my own, because im stubborn.
also, i dont want any of you to think that just because im making different decisions in my life that im going to forget about any of you, or stop caring, or anything like that.
ive always found it so much easier to write to complete and total strangers, than share some of my thoughts with my friends or family.
but sometimes its like you guys arent even strangers.
ive found that i have a lot in common with some of you, and ive seen myself go through a lot of the same struggles.
yes, were all alone in life, but it seems that on some primal level were all connected in some minuscule way.
so.
enough of all this talking shit.
im going to go party.
XOXO Sophia Ruins <3
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keep blogging though. I like your stories and the parts of your life that you share. its like... a tv series... it gets addictive. It doesn't just have to be an ana blog okay? :) no pressure
ReplyDeletedefinitly keep writing!
ReplyDeletesorry i never commented on your previous post ... guess it hit to close to home. something i knew deep inside me but needed to hear in someone elses words.
deep down i know being skinny wont make me happy (i have been there before and i def wasn't happy)but the thing is nothing will make me truely happy. so i think i'll continue to live for the small plesures of things like sipping my coffee on an empty stomach whilst walking to school or having the strenght to refuse food. (not trying to sway your decision just trying to let you know how moving your blog is)
when you talked about how you never enjoy the things you used to i nearly cried, i used to paint all the time, now i only do it for school when i need to. a chore, not a passion:(
anyway have fun at the party
x
be true to yourself hon, and don't worry about disappointing anyone else, in the real world or in blog world. we're here for you regardless!
ReplyDeleteBlog or not, I'm sure everyone here wants to see you happy. Definitely go with your heart.
ReplyDeletebelieve it or not, you are probably have the best ana blog around
ReplyDeletewhichever decision you make, i'm sure all of your readers...including me, will support you:)