Stochastic

Alright so far today i've had two pieces of 50 calorie bread and 2 egg whites.
The grand total for today iiiissss:
134 calories.

I think I might just live off of egg whites and bread for the rest of my life. Did you know that one egg white only has 17 calories? [depending on the size of course].

Pretty kickass. Now I can have scrambled eggs and omelets and whatever the hell else I can make with eggs.

My mood today is fantastic once again, and I have a WEIRD ASS story to tell you guys.

Okay so brace yourselves, i'm about to get strange
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So sometimes, I see these flashes of things while im dreaming or while im awake and ill see it just like a memory. [if you've ever seen the beginning of a movie then spontaneously remembered the end after having seen it, its exactly like that.]

But itll be small stupid stuff like what im going to watch on tv later or whos going to text me and it never usually last more than a few seconds so i have no idea what the vision-thingy is about until it happens. [unless i see a name or something and a phone and put two in two together.]
So I always thought it was kind of weird but had to have a logical explanation. [I mean, how much crazier could I possibly be?]
So anyways, this used to happen a lot when I was younger and I told my mom and she told me this great big story about how all the women in my family are "psychics" or some shit.
So of course I didn't buy into it AT ALL and just humored her.

Well last night, I had this dream that I was sitting in a room, talking to my grandma. Well she only speaks spanish and I dominantly speak english [spanish was my first language but now I dont speak it, long story.] so sometimes I have trouble understanding some of the words she uses.

So I dream that im talking to her and shes telling me about one of my friends and she keeps repeating 'accidente de coche'.
I had no clue what she was trying to say except it was something about an accident.

So I get up this morning and tell my mom about the dream [we talk about dreams a lot] and she calls my grandma to ask if she had any weird dreams.

Well according to my grandma, she had this dream that she was talking to me trying to tell me about a vision she had before going to sleep. Well on the phone she says the vision was about 'un accidente de coche'.
I ask my mom what it means and she says 'a car accident'.

Fucking creepy right?

It doesn't stop there.


A few hours ago, my best friend was driving to come pick me up, and called to tell me he got into a huge car accident on the highway.

Is that weird or what?
And hey.
You don't have to believe me people, I dont even believe it myself.

I'm just glad he's okay.






So back to the real world.
Im hoping to not have more than 3 or 4 hundred calories by the end of today. Ive done 200 jumping jacks and want to get up to 600.
Well see how that goes.


Oh hey, remember the last time I got drunk? Well I sat up all night writing [until 5 or 6 a.m.?] but I didn't remember it until today. I also wrote a collection of short stories, and I havent read any of them yet.

I wonder if my drunk writing is the same as my sober writing.

hmm. I might post a piece of it up if its not too awful.
That and im considering posting some body pictures too.



We'll see.



XOXO Sophia Ruins <3