okay so im back.
on monday, im starting over. third chapter in the book of ana.
i watched tv about fat people all day long and when i got up to go get water, i caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror.
and for a minute, i saw a thin girl with not too much work to be done. for a minute i thought that if i really worked out, and went back to ana, id be perfect in a month or so. for a whole minute i really didnt hate myself.
but then i took another look and saw other things. but thats not what im here to talk about.
im here to say, im not giving up. because even though things are shitty, if i just lay down and die, then i will never to be able to say i tried. even if i fall flat on my face again, at least id be able to say i gave it 100% and no less.
so this weekend, im going to sever my ties with food. im going to taste every last thing i will ever want to taste, and i will completely ruin my appetite for all my favorite foods.
so thats that.
i start over monday.
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Good luck!
ReplyDeleteYou can do it :)
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ReplyDeleteBe careful, Sophia. Best of luck!
and i start over with you! ^^ i fucked up a few times too. it was cause i figured it didnt matter but thats all bollocks and im ready for a fresh start. please dont screw up agen. ill be with you and by the end of this week, itll be down 4 lbs. i think we could do it. one step at a time agreed? [agen] ^__^
ReplyDeleteagreed! =D
ReplyDeletebe strong sweetie! u have my support if u need it :] i fucked up big time as well..
ReplyDeletewow.you're such an inspiration...
ReplyDeletei want to be as strong as you are...
maybe...maybe i'll start NEXT monday...maybe...next week...
god im such a cow.