okay.
so ive been having a pretty bad week but im not going into detail with that.
i broke up with N on sunday and im glad. i think i just need to take time off from boys and just chill out.
i weigh 125 after breakfast.
i did some ballet, hip hop and belly dancing for a good 3 hours yesterday, and then finished it off with kick boxing.
im trying to be more active because i hate the thought of me sitting around all day getting more gluttonous but the problem with me trying to exercise is i HATE exercising. it makes me all sweaty and worn out, and my hair gets in my face and my clothes feel too tight and too hot. im also awfully lazy. or so i hear. so it takes a lot of effort for me to start exercising.
im pretty bad with that, but hey at least im making an effort.
idk what it is, but even though ive gained weight, i feel like im smaller for some reason. like my waist is smaller or my stomach is flatter.
idk.
i want to go back to ana.
soooo much.
only two more years to go.
then i can move out and start back up again.
[ive got my whole life planned out from the day i turn 18]
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I did that too! The only thing is, the closer I get to 18 the less and less solid my plans are.
ReplyDeleteThe only thing that stays the same is I'M MOVING OUT FIRST THING.
And active is good! Imagine your tall, muscular body dropping weight like THAT when you do start restricting again