today was better

okay so today was better.
eating still sucks but the good thing is that my weight hasnt gone up...
still at 120.

i swear that has to be one of my least favorite numbers in the whole world.

its kewl though,
because for some reason my shirts are fitting me looser and there are moments when i catch glimpses in the mirror and i dont look as fat as i thought and i seem like id be on the verge of breaking into the pro ana world.

but then i shift and the image is gone and i see the fat again.
and remember that ive been at this for too long.

ehhh

its kewl.

im gunna be okay.

i think.


god i cant wait until im tall enough to go backkkk.


well.

peace <3