I can't fucking stand my parents.
They won't leave me alone about anything I eat, and now they're making us have "family dinner time" aka a plan they devised to destroy any chance I have at getting thin.
They wont let me eat my own food for breakfast, they wont let me eat my own food for lunch, they wont let me eat my own food for dinner.
What exactly do they expect me to eat? For breakfast this morning, they fried eggs and rice, then made bagels covered in butter and cream cheese. [yes, both at the same time.]
Lunch? Lasagna. Heaps and heaps of lasagna.
Dinner? fried chicken and alfredo pasta.
So, i guess now im fasting or im going to have to get up earlier than everyone else and eat then and fast during the days. [my parents both get up around 6 because they're "early birds"].
Fuck this shit, this is so ridiculous.
My mom called me insane and said that im "not right about food".
Really, captain obvious? and how long haven't you know this for?
She also [notably] said that i can "attempt to lose all the weight i want" because ill "just end up fat and hungry".
Okay.
Thats fine.
Well see how you feel about that statement in a few weeks, because you'd better believe i will bring that shit back up.
I can't believe they think they're going to force me to eat that stuff.
I WILL NOT EAT THAT FUCKING SHIT.
ITS FULL OF FAT AND CALORIES AND I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT THE FUCK THEY PUT IN IT. WHY DO THEY THINK THEY'RE FAT ASSES? ITS BECAUSE THEY'RE CONSTANTLY PILING FOOD ON THEIR PLATES AND CALLING IT A "BALANCED MEAL". YEAH THAT MEAL IS ABOUT AS BALANCED AND YOUR WEIGHT
They gave me the option of dinner with them, or nothing.
HAH. I only wish they knew how good I am at fasting.
At least by their terms. They both still think that a human being cant survive 3 days without food [its 3 days without water. I tried to explain this to them many times before but they refuse to listen because they're food obsessed assholes.]
So every day to them without food is like a week.
They can take away my phone, they can take away my laptop, they can ground me, I don't give a fuck.
Unless they plan on shoving a tube down my throat, im not going to eat anything they make.
Fuck that shit.
XOXO Sophia Ruins <3
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good luck girl.
ReplyDeletei went through this a few years ago.
it got to the point where everything was taken away from me
my phone, the computer, i was grounded, the tv
i could have nothing unless i ate
parent don't understand though, I was totally fine with everything taken away from me because at that point i had no interest in those things anyways.
your at a point where your parents have definitely taken notice to your behaviors.
make sure you are very sly or else they may try and screw things up for you even worse.
also, remember that they love you and they are just doing this because they are concerned... try not to get mad at them.
just do what you have to do.
again, best of luck
you will DEFINITELY be in my thoughts.
xx
You are this way beacuse you seek control. You have not come this far to give it all away.
ReplyDeleteBy the way it's just another step to getting to your goalweight-fighting for it. Against hunger and people and all else.
ReplyDeleteEw! I can empathize... I freaking hate when they think they know what they're talking about food-wise and whenever I complain about a certain type of food, they bring up the one time I happened to eat too much of something that was unhealthy.
ReplyDeleteStill here if you need moral support ♥
xo
Victoria
wow this SAME thing happened to me today. SO GAY. being forced to eat with other people who are so oblivious to what they're shoving into their mouths is such shit.
ReplyDeletei know how u feel.
<3
elle
i know what you mean. i'm so sorry. the other day, my boyfriend found out about my eating habits.. he said he's only going to eat when i eat. what the heck am i supposed to do about that?! lie to him or starve him... either way, it's going to kill me, because my only other option is eat like a pig, and i'm not doing that.
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear things aren't going well with your parents, all parents seem to think that if you don't eat for like 3 hours that you'll starve to death. It's odd, but don't worry in a few years you'll be off at university and NOBODY there watches what you eat, because they don't keep track of it, and being over 18 means your parents won't have access to any info about your dining hall comings and goings. :)
ReplyDeleteBeing forced to eat all that stuff is always disgusting, I can't believe anyone could eat that much food ( and keep it down)
good luck
XOXO- Kelsey
eeeww its like they chose the worst of the worst to shove at you. im so sorry you have to go through that. maybe you should show them a diet book so they can see they eat waaay more than the average person. if you cant get out of eating try to only have a few bites and spit it into your napkin. but if you can fast then i say away girly, youve come too far for them to take it all away from you.
ReplyDeleteyour strong, they must see how strong you really are to go to these extremes to make you fat.
hang in there
meg
Hey, sorry to hear about the whole parent thing. Have you tried just pretending to eat? Works for me.
ReplyDeletebtw, i love your blog.
I was wonderin if you could possibly take a look at mine...
I feel silly writing it if no one reads it.
www.fadinglillie.blogspot.com
Would mean a lot to me
Thankyou!
Xx. Lillie
Wait a tic, the same jerkoff step-father who calls you fat is now forcing you to eat?? Omg. My sympathies.
ReplyDeletehaha it reminds me of at school a month ago when we had to do a stupid team building activity where you have to number 1-10 what you would take if you where lost on a desert island (dumb i know!) and it was like, food, water, matches etc. and i was arguing with the teacher that food should be futher down the list and she was like "yes well i suppose you could go a few days without food" and i laughed and was like "more like a few weeks" and she said you couldn't.
ReplyDeletei wanted to be like thats total bullshit but didn't want to distract attention to myself.
i thought it was common knowledge ... apparently not!