I never really make it out of the 120's before I manage to give up.
I think the thing is, around the 4 day mark i start thinking that i'm never going to be thin, and im only torturing myself by fasting when im never going to get to where i want to be.
on top of that, the fact that i never exercise only makes me gain weight faster.
every night since i posted, ive had a dream where i was thin.
the best kind of thin, with shoulder bones and hip bones and cheekbones.
in my dreams people tell me im beautiful, and i feel like i could do anything.
i know i could accomplish so much if i just wasnt so negative.
i wish i didn't think the horrible things about myself that i do.
im tired of the constant battle with myself, im tired of hating my body, and im tired of the ups and downs.
somtimes, i just dont know what to do.
XOXO Sophia Ruins <3
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I know how you feel. I want it SO BAD but sometimes I think I just can't do it. But use your dreams as motivation. Even when you think you can't do it, you CAN. It's been done. You're just as powerful as anyone and I know you can reach your goals. : )
ReplyDeleteCheer up beautiful,
ReplyDeletei know you'll be able to do anything you want to.
Sure, it'll take time, but it'll be so worth it in the end
stay strong, and try to be positive, it'll help ;) <3
Keep fasting and the weight will come off :). If you dont excercise much just do a small amount, like 5 minutes, a day to get into habit and slowly build it up? xx I know you can do it.
ReplyDeletehang in there, it'll get better
ReplyDelete<3
elle
yea..
ReplyDeletethis is pretty much my life.
even after "recovery" im nothing near recovered.
life=struggle. period. and im sorry for being blunt.
best of luck.
xx
trust me i know exactly what your going through. i never thought i would get out of the 130's! i was hovering around 132 FOREVER. i know its a loooonng ass road but once you pass your hurdle of 120 you wont believe how great you'll feel.i honestly barely work out... maybe once a week lol.i found this website that tells you how many calories you burn doing everyday stuff and by just literally standing around for an hour a day, and stretching for 30 minutes, you wouldnt beleive the calories that add up. the website is http://www.healthstatus.com/calculate/cbc you might want to type that into a search engine first to make sure its right but that should tell you what you can do so that you dont even feel like your burning calories. i know you can do it , just keep trying.stay strong
ReplyDeletemeg
**hugs**
Just don't give up. Push past day four. Don't think to tomorrow, or the day before. Don't consider it day two or three or four. Every day is day one, no matter what happened the day before. And there is no tomorrow. There is no goal weight. There's just doing what you can to get through that day, and nothing beyond.
ReplyDeleteIt's the only way I'm surviving right now, and I hope that helps a little bit.
Good luck, love ♥
I have the same cycle... When I get to a certain weight it almost seems like a dream, like it's too good to be true, and that I should just accept that I'm a fat girl and get it over with.
ReplyDeleteBut we can overcome.
It just takes a lot of practice!