Jumper

Last night was fantastic.
30 calories, liquids included.
I also managed to find a system to get food off my mind, and for the most part it works really well.
but more about that later.

right now, id like to address "mysticangel8412" simply because every word shes written down to me so far has been quite unimpressive and her "constructive criticism" has done [almost] nothing to help me.

Id also like to take the time to stress that I don't WANT construct criticism when I dont ASK for constructive criticism.

So, mysticangel8412.

Posting a comment complaining about what I write and the fact that I haven't made it yet didnt exactly strike me as someone trying to "help" me or "push me to do better".

Since you've been obviously keeping up with my blog, you would know that my mother does this exact same thing and it only makes her look like a stupid whore. Im sad to report it had the same effect on you.

Also, in your first comment [you definitely succeeded in making yourself look like a random asshole there by the way] you described my writing as "melodramatic bullshit" and then turned around and said you think my writing is beautiful.

If I got offended without reason, its due to your shitty reasoning.

Its safe to say that anything you write is not taken seriously by me for the simple fact that since youre the one saying it, it must be utter bullshit. [see now THATS good reasoning.]

"I honestly do think you're going to succeed... but only for about 5 days, and then you will create the same hell for yourself that you always do."

Pertaining to the above statement: i'll have you know that i WILL prove you wrong, and when I get to my goal weight I will personally hunt you down, and shove it in your face. [of course only after the said 5 days is up.]

Id also like to let you know that you've successfully destroyed any enjoyment ill ever get from binging or eating solid food again.

I'm pretty sure this is the only positive thing i've gotten from anything you've written to me. [but this small fact makes up for everything else, right?]




So, standing by my original statement of "the next time you feel like talking to me etc." [you know, the part with the dick in your mouth?] id really love it if you would stop wasting your time commenting on my blog.









so now that im done with that, on to the system.

Im sure a lot of you have heard the whole "when you think about food pinch yourself" thing.
I've tried it, but all its ever resulted in is me irritated with blue bruises all over my arms.


Something thats always held my attention has been art and when I draw I become more consumed in what i'm doing than when i'm writing.

So yesterday, I successfully filled up my time with various art projects to do throughout the day.

Even though my hands were busy, my mind still tends to wander.

So everytime I start thinking about food I just stop.

I start thinking about something else, I pay more attention to the detail in what im drawing, i drink a glass of water, I move off the subject.

Completely block it out.


I actually noticed a drop in the amount i thought about food over the course of the day yesterday.

Another thing that helps, is if you find an object that isn't food related, and describe it in 30 words instead of dwell on what looks yummy at the time.

sounds easy, but after those first 10 you have to try a little harder.

Also, due to recent events concerning my parents, [im sure im just being melodramatic though, so i wont go into details] i've decided to start a fast today rather than continue to restrict.

Don't know how long for, don't know how much I weigh, don't really care.


P.S. - I definitely recommend you read / follow this blog. This chick is fantastic. Click!


XOXO Sophia Ruins <3