120lbs

okay so sorry about not posting the past couple days, ive been super busy with stuff.
ive fasted friday, saturday, and today is my last day.
im super excited about my planned binge.
i weighed myself this morning and i weighed 122 then i walked back to the couch to mope then decided to weigh myself again and i weighed 120.
it was so weird.
i made sure the dial was adjusted right and everything and i weighed 120.
i tried a couple more times and it stayed at 120.
im so happy omfg.
so now the real work begins.
im officially finished undoing the mess i made and now i get to get back to my REAL weight loss.
i feel like its going to be really easy and stuff since ive got so much more self control than i used to.

ive decided that my weekly weight loss goal is going to be -4lbs. it seems like a fairly easy number, so that even if i dont loose weight with my planned binge then id still loose a pound everyday then id be at 6 lbs a week. so 4lbs gives me a good place to hope for since it seems easy enough to get to.

i havent been taking my rapidslim and i havent been working out the past couple of days.

im so paranoid that my weight is going to change and be higher than 120 that i keep getting on the scale every 5 seconds.
it just seems too good to be true.
too easy.
too fun.
not enough of a grueling process for my weight to actually be down to the number ive needed it to be at for the past 2 weeks.

ugh.

im so relieved.
i feel like now that im at 120 i can start the REAL process like im finally done undoing the weight i gained when i "ate like a normal person" and im finally back to my original weight so i can actually start loosing.


god i hope my weight doesnt go back to what it was early this morning.

please god please let it stay at 120.


im going to go work out.

XOXO Sophia Ruins <3