40 calories

supposed to eat 65 calories today, but im not hungry, and dont want to eat anything i dont need to eat. so todays been a 40 calorie day so far. i might eat the rest of what i had jsut to get my metabolism going... wait. i lied. monday is close and i really dont need the extra calories. maybe i could add them to that? no. its too much already.

okay so today i weighed 122 still. i was kind of disappointed that i didnt weigh like 121 or 120 or something.
idk. i was expecting something. so i told my mom i didnt really feel like going clothes shopping this fri cuz id rather wait till next fri so i can spend my money [once she fucking pays me back] and i wanted her to buy me a digital scale [one of the really accurate ones]instead and she was like 'oh its okay, i wasnt going to take you in the first place. ill get you a scale whenever.'

yeah. so i guess im not going. she also took the liberty of canceling my weekend plans for me.

so yeah, hopefully ill get a new scale soon. but im not holding my breath.

didnt work out today, i didnt really have any time to.
i think my worst problem area has to be my stomach. not my thighs and arms but my stomach. it seems like no matter what i do, i cant seem to get the weight off in large quantities there. everywhere else its like i wake up and they just SEEM smaller but its like everyday i wake up my stomach just seems the same.

my best friend just got a jacuzzi and he said i can go over anytime plus im always over there anyways so now i really need to lose the weight so i can get in a bikini and feel better then great.

my parents are kind of beginning to stop asking me if i want food.
today my mom was heading to taco bell [she owns and runs a company so she never has time to cook. thats usually my stepdads job but hes busy all teh time too.] and all she asked was if i wanted a salad at least and i said no.

they offered me a taco off their plate but again i said no.
other than that they havent been asking. are they starting to egt the picture? maybe.
my stepdad brought me back a diet coke and diet green tea today where as he brought abck everyone else slurpees.
i was ecstatic.
maybe they just think im fatter?

hmm.

anyways.

just wanted to thank all you girls for the support and everything. it means a LOT to me and it really helps keep me going sometimes.


so alright.
its thinspo time.
















































































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